A few things on my mind...

I have had a lot on my mind lately and I feel that my blog is the only place I can really get it all out without getting in trouble!

First off...I don't like being a grown up! I hate having to worry about money and finances and bills and the future and working and what are we going to do when this happens or when that happens... There is just so much uncertainty it gets scary. I remember when my biggest worry in the world was what Barbie am I going to play with today or what friend should I invite over to play with. Man I wish it was that easy! I love being married and I love my husband more than I ever have, but why can't things just be easy?! I know there's a purpose for everything and I know I chose that and I wouldn't change it for anything but sometimes I just wish that things didn't cause so much stress!!!!

Second... this may be too much information, but I figure not many read this anyways so what the heck haha! So being a newlywed I of course like most newlyweds went on birth control. I went to the doctor, and being diabetic, I asked him what form of birth control would have the LEAST effect on my diabetes, and stupid me thinking the doctor actually knew what he was talking about, was told that the Mirena IUD would be the best. Now for those of you who don't know what that one is, it's the one with added hormones... BIG MISTAKE! 956 dollars later (because my stupid insurance doesn't cover birth control) I am stuck with this IUD and not knowing what to do. I hate what it's doing to my diabetes. Its making my numbers go crazy! I can take the same amount of insulin everyday and eat the exact same things everyday and somedays they honestly are just all over the place! Not to mention I feel like I belong in a mental institution most of the time because of my mood swings. I can be the happiest person in the world and then all of a sudden, something flips inside me and I want to absolutely kill someone and then I just want to cry hysterically the next minute! Now I know I was a little crazy before I got the IUD but I feel that it's made me even more crazy now! Other effects are acne (I have never had bad skin and now I get zits like crazy!) I am tired all the time and I get really defensive really quickly. I also feel like I have anxiety even more than I did before! So what do I do??? My doctor gave me a different anti-depressant with some anxiety medicine in it to see if that helps with my mood swings because she felt bad that I paid so much for my stupid IUD and haven't even had it for a year, so she didn't want to tell me to get it out just yet, but geez why the crap can't my insurance cover birth control or why didn't my woman doctor give me the IUD without hormones?! I'm angry at this situation, but oh well I just have to wait it out I guess... Sorry I'm done with that round of venting!

OK this will be my last item to complain about, but why is it ok for grown people to act like they're in high school?! Seriously, I hated high school and I have been out of high school for a while now, yet just recently I feel like I am back in it and it's very annoying! I try to do the right thing by doing my job (like I thought I was supposed to) and other people find it ok just to sit around and b.s. instead of doing their job, so I say something and they find it ok also to call me a name that they think is also ok because the term here where I work is supposedly a term of endearment... but then I'm the bad guy for taking offense to being called a name I should've never been called in the first place and now the other person has everyone on their side and only hearing his side of the arguement leaving me all by my little lonesome! Oh well I guess right?! I was trying to do my job and yet I'm the one that is left by myself... and yet the other person is trying to turn everyone against me! How old are you?! OK I promise I'm done venting. This post isn't very pleasant, but even if nobody reads this, I do feel a bit better after getting it all out somewhere!

To leave on a happy note, Jeff and I booked our next vacation to... are you ready for it???   MEXICO!! Yes we're going to Mexico again, we're going to stay at a resort in Cabo for a week! We leave July 25 and come back on July 30 and I cannot wait! Did I mention I love my husband?!

That's all for now!

~Happy Mother's Day~

I don't know if my mom will see this, but I just wanted to share with everyone (if anyone reads this) how wonderful my mom is!  For any of you that have met my mom, you know she is one of the most genuine,patient, selfless, good hearted people you will ever meet. To me she is the most beautiful person, not only on the outside, but on the inside.  She is just like her mother! My Grandma and my mom are so much alike. They could be having the worst day or could be having a hard time in their life but they will never let it show. They will always do everything possible to make sure that everyone is happy and everyone feels welcome and included no matter what the situation. I don't know how I got so lucky to be blessed with such great examples in my life but I will be forever grateful. I am hoping that some of these genes get passed down to me when I finally become a mother myself. I know i could never be exactly like my mom but if I could just be a part of the woman she is I will be ok with that. No words could ever express my gratitude and my love for my mother and I could never thank her enough for the help she has given me and for the example she is to me. She has always been there for me no matter what problem I'm having in my life, whether big or small, she always listens and makes me feel better. I don't know what I would ever do without my mom! I love you Mom! Happy Mother's Day!

Birthday/Valentine's Weekend!

Also it was my birthday on February 10 and it was such a good day! Everyone made it so special I can't thank everyone enough. I got my cubicle decorated at work and lots of messages and phone calls and my nieces and nephews even called to sing happy birthday! That was my favorite! Also when I got home my cute Hubby had my present all wrapped and couldn't wait to give it to me... I opened it and he got me some exercise shorts I had wanted forever and a gift card to Maurices so I could buy the purse I had been telling him about! He also got me a Cold Stone Cookies and Cream Birthday cake which was absolutely delicious!!! We decided since my birthday is so close to Valentines day that we were just going to celebrate it all at once and go spend the night in Salt Lake at the Little America! We went and ate at the Old Spaghetti Factory and then went back to our suite at our hotel! It was so much fun and such a nice weekend! We celebrated with my family when we got back on Sunday and had lots of food and more cake and just hung out with everyone, it was so fun!! Then for Valentine's I got him some socks he had been wanting from Aeropostale and he got me an Orchid. I decided that can be our baby since we're not having kids for a VERY LONG time! I almost killed it in the first week we had it but I think it's all better now and it's beautiful!! I hope you all had a great Valentine's day!!

Playing Catch Up!

I didn't realize how long it has been since I posted so I thought I better post about what we have been up to these past few months... First off I survived my first cruise! It was so much fun and the weather was so nice and warm! We didn't want to come home! There are WAY too many pictures to post them all so I'll just post a few...

 That is Cabo behind us. I absolutely loved Cabo, we had a lot of fun walking around all the shops and laying out on the beach! I could've stayed there the whole time, but we had a lot of fun on the ship. There was so much to do all the time, we went to some really fun karoake nights and game shows and lots of performances too. The food was delicious as well. They had all kinds of food at any time of the day which was great! My favorite was the soft serve ice cream!! Oh man just thinking about all that yummy food makes me want to go back!  One of the nights at dinner we got a nice surprise, some of the waiters came and sang "Happy Honeymoon" to us and brought us the yummy cake below! Sorry I forgot to take a picture of it before we ate most of it!

There really is just way too much to post about our cruise but we are already planning our next one and can't wait to go again!! Sorry I would've posted more pictures but my computer is slow!!

*First Christmas*

This year Christmas was so much fun! It was our first Christmas being married and let me tell you, it was so fun yet exhausting!! Who knew that having two families to visit on Christmas was so tiring, but I wouldn't have it any other way! We spent Christmas eve up at Grandma and Grandpa Hansen's house with his cousins and it was a blast. Then we came home and opened one present each. I got him a gift card to Maverick (He loves his Caffeine Free Pepsi) and he got me the movie Easy A! We both love that show so we watched that and went to bed. I woke Jeff up at about 8 in the morning to go open presents!  We then went to my parents to open presents and to have breakfast. It was so fun being with all my family and to see how excited the nieces and nephews were to see their presents! After that we went to open presents with Jeff's family and to spend time with them, then back to my parents for our Christmas Day dinner!  It was so much fun! I loved it but was so excited to go home and relax after that long day. I look forward to many many more Christmas' with my hubby!

 On January 2 we leave on our Honeymoon Cruise to Mexico!!! I can hardly wait! We'll be gone for a week in the nice warm weather! I am a little nervous because it's my first cruise but I'm so excited to go on a real honeymoon with my cute little Hubby! We'll be sure to take lots of pictures and post them so everyone can be jealous! jk

~Married Life~

Sorry it's been such a long time since I have posted but things got a little hectic for a while!! So to start off, November 20th, Jeff and I had the chance to go through the temple together for the first time to receive our endowments!! It was such a neat experience to have both of our families there with us and to have Jeff's mom go through to receive hers as well! I loved walking into the celestial room and seeing our families just standing there waiting for us! What an overwhelming rush of emotion that was! It was truly amazing!! Here's a picture of us before the temple...

After that it was just rush like crazy to get all the last minute details done for the wedding. It was crazy but the day finally came... I got up at about 430 and my sister came over at 5 to do my hair (thanks Tami) then my other sister came over shortly after that to do my make up (thanks Jamie) and then Jeff and I were off to the temple!! It was awesome to just be able to sit in the celestial room with him. We got to sit there for about a half hour before they came and got us to go and be sealed. My uncle Tom on my mom's side got to seal us, which was so neat!! It was amazing to go in there and know that we were doing it the right way and  with all our loved ones there with us! What an amazing experience it was!! 

Everything after that went off without a hitch minus a few catastrophes! My photographer went to the wrong temple so we sat there waiting to come out of the temple after being married for almost 40 minutes, but at least we all got to sit in where it was warm because about an hour after being outside we were frozen! We had fun taking pictures and then the luncheon was delicious! The reception was funner than I thought too. I thought it would be uncomfortable with a bunch of people I didn't know but it turned out great and it was beautiful! Thanks so much to my family and Jeff's family for all your help that day and for everything you all did to help make our day perfect!!

We stayed in Salt Lake for a few days after we got married and stayed at Little America and then our last night at the Anniversary Inn. We had lots of fun and can't wait for our cruise in January!!! Here are a few pictures from our stay...

Haha Jeff wandering around our room at Little America. We were on the 17th Floor, the very top!!

 Phantom of the Opera room at the Anniversary Inn.

  I thought this little sign was funny!!

    Mr. and Mrs. Nelson! Right before we checked out of our hotel.

Hopefully we'll have some wedding pictures to post soon, sorry this was so long!!!

Almost There!!

The wedding countdown is now down to 2 weeks!!! Can you believe it? I can't believe how fast time flies! Last saturday I had the Hansen family shower and it was awesome! Tons of people showed up and I got lots of fun presents and got to meet some more of Jeff's family! Thanks to everyone who came and thanks to Jill, Amy and Carol for putting it all together!! Today is my family's shower which should be fun and I'm going to thank my mom and sisters in advance for everything they have done, I have the best family in the world!!

Also this past week was this cute little guys birthday! He's such a stud and his little brothers are pretty cute themselves! Happy Birthday Brycie Poo! He and I have nick names for each other, he calls me deedster and I call him Brycie Poo, did I mention how cute he is?!

Tomorrow Jeff and I are giving our "Graduation talks" at the singles ward. Haha isn't it funny thats what they call it when you get married? Anyways he's pretty nervous but it will be fun! I have to say I am going to miss that ward. I have made some of my best friends there and I love the bishopric! It's going to be weird getting used to a family ward again but I'm excited to be able to start my life with Jeff! It's been a crazy road, but deep in the back of my mind I knew I would end up with him after all this time!

Here's how it all started.....

When I was 16 my friends and I were absolutely obsessed with big nice trucks. It just so happened there was this really nice truck that we would always see driving around Brigham and cruisin main street if you will. We would always see it parked at Smith's and found out that whoever owned this truck worked there.  We would get brave and pull into Shopko where this truck would hang out and try to talk to Jeff and his friend but Jeff wouldn't give us the time of day haha! We would leave notes on his truck and everything! (Can you say STALKERS?!) Anyways it was time for me to get a job and my family being the Smith's famiy they are, kinda automatically got me a job at Smith's. I started working there and finally Jeff stopped me and asked if I was the one leaving notes on his truck, which I admitted to along with my friends and we just started talking from there. My friends and I decided to go to Temple Square one night at the end of November to look at the lights. We had a huge group going so I invited Jeff. This technically was our first 'Group Date." I had started liking him but we were trying to set him up with one of my friends but later that night we got talking about kissing and how I'd never really made out. (This part I'm not particularly proud of) We ended up making out in Smith's parking lot that night haha and didn't think anything of it but after that we started hanging out more and more and ended up dating for about 2 years. We went our separate ways and kept coming back to each other even after being in other relationships and for the past 3 years he told me he knew he was going to marry me, which I thought he was crazy! Turns out this last time we started dating again it just felt completely different from that "First Date" as I call it I knew we would end up together.

Now for the Proposal... For about the last 3 years Jeff has been trying to get me to go to Park City with his family, as they go every year. This time I actually went. We had gone ring shopping but I didn't really expect anything. I had a feeling it could happen up there but didn't know he had gone back to the jeweler or had talked to my dad, which turns out he's very sneaky!! Anyways we got up there Friday and had a blast all day, then Saturday we got up early and went and played on the Alpine slide and all the other fun rides there. We decided to go swimming and hang out there and as we were at the pool Jeff mentioned we should go for a little hike to finally use his metal detector which he decided to bring last minute (or so I thought) Anyways I was super tired after we got done at the pool and didn't really feel like going on a hike but I decided to suck it up and go. So here we are walking around with a metal detector to get to the hill where we decided to go. We finally started using it and it started going off, so Jeff tells me to start digging...Really?? He was just standing there watching me dig in the dirt with this little stick I found cuz I had nothing else. He leaves to start looking around some more and tells me to come over where he is cuz it's going off pretty strongly. (I'm a little annoyed at this point haha) I go over there and see a doller bill and a little plastic baggy. I grabbed the dollar bill all excited I actually found something on our adventure and he tells me to grab the baggie. This made me nervous as I had no idea how long this bag had been there or what could be in there, but I grab it and I was like oh cool someone lost a ring... then it clicked, He grabbed the bag and got my ring out and got down on one knee and asked me to marry him and the rest is history!! Here's a picture of us right after...

and here's a picture of what we now call "Our Hill"

I'm sorry this post was so long, but I just wanted to share!! Enjoy!